Friday, June 29, 2007

Denial






A good day today, very hot day but good. Big Brother is home again, huge relief! Since it has been so hot we decided to walk the mall (Fiesta Mall Jaye) it is supposed to be up to 114 degrees here this week. As soon as you step outside the sun almost immediately starts to burn your skin. It's horrible it really is. It's bad enough that we literally have to run from the car to the mall before we bake. When we did get inside K.C. pulled me along, he remembers or route and makes sure we stay on it. We do pretty much the same stuff, look at the same stuff, go to the food court etc. Man was I in huge denial today. It was such a good trip to the mall, I nearly forgot about Autism. Forgot about Autism! We headed to the food court, Big Brother wanted to eat at Sbarros. K.C. pulled in the other direction (where he knew fries were) Oh how I should have listened! Instead, since Big Brother had just gotten home, we did what Big Brother wanted this time around. We ALL ate at Sbarros. I know K.C. can't have dairy, I know this yet I was in total denial today. Trying to reason in my mind, "he just wants pizza like every other kid!" "I''m going to let him have the darn pizza!" And so I did. He liked it, he ate half of it, man life was good! He didn't get sick so far. We walked downstairs (no elevators for K.C., when he goes down on the elevator he gasps like he loses his breath and falls to the ground) as soon as we reached Sears the barfing began. Cashier at Sears looked towards us and I asked her to have someone clean it up. I couldn't have cleaned it up if I wanted to because I had nothing with me. I just wanted to get him outside as quickly as possible because I knew the bathroom was further than outside was. Poor kid vomited three more times before we got home. Denial on my part. No more fairy tale thinking for me. No more dairy for poor K.C. I just wanted it to be a regular day for everyone. Wanted K.C. to eat whatever he wanted. Boy was I wrong!

6 comments:

JUST A MOM said...

Tina I know you look here before you post it but I realy don't matter anyway. BUT here is my cell phoen number.. 480-234-5841 next tiem you go to the mall it would be cool to meet ya. IF YOU WANT and maybe just maybe I could assist a bit and keep cool too... Haven't been to fiesta in a long time.

sorry botuthe poor baby and soem times we ALL forget about "stuff" Fawn can't do stairs very well,, I forget that some times. at 18 it is NOT a pretty picture....

Mom without a manual said...

Wow! I know what you mean about denial and I am sorry that happened. But it also helps keep it real for all of you. Now you have another reminder that diary is not his friend! Sometimes I wish it was that clear cut for us regarding food choices!

Poor guy! But it still sounds like it was a good day out!

Melissa H said...

Aw Tina. :-( I don't know that I would call it denial. Sometimes you just have to take a chance. Maybe KC had grown out of the dairy allergy (which *does* happen!) Okay, so he didn't. My dh used to be deathly allergic to peanuts as a child. Not anymore, though. You never know unless you take a chance.
As for "forgetting" about autism? Do we all really need to be focused on it all the time?? :-) I mean, really. Sometimes, it is just nice to appreciate where you are in the moment. I'm trying my best to focus on the "haves" instead of the "have nots". Just because we do this doesn't make us in denial over autism. It just makes us focus on our child instead of our child's limitations. Know what I say? I say, GOOD FOR YOU that you did.

Anonymous said...

have you ever thought of digestive enzymes for dairy? worth a try....go to your local health food store.

Lora said...

I am with Melissa on this one Tina, I don't think of it as denial either. You took a chance and thought that maybe this time it wouldn't effect him but it did so now you know that YES he is indeed still allergic and sensitive to dairy so you know for future reference. You are a hell of a mom and an awesome friend and I think that you are doing a fabulous job no matter what. He's okay after all and you both got through it okay. love to you guys and hope to talk to you soon.

kristina said...

You do what you have to and then you move on, yes? Remember the good times and keep laughing---and stay cool!